Assalamualaikumwarahmatullahiwabarakatuhu.A’udhubillahiminashaitanirajeem.Bismillahirahmaniraheem.(basically peace be upon you, seeking refuge from Shaitan/devil and beginning with the name of God, the Most Kind, Most Merciful..) Assalamualaikum/peace be upon you- everyone. Hi this is story No.1. well it’s kinda a request too. The guy or girl basically need a lot of support from you guys so please help them. Oh yeah, for future stories, it’d be easier for people replying if you mentioned whether you were a guy or a girl. Here it is:
I just need someone to talk to.
I know my life ain’t messed up, but sometimes it feels that way.
I’m Muslim btw and yh I pray and stuff, and I ain’t gonna kill myself or self harm or do drugs or smoke or any of that lol.
But its just that so much stuff happens and I cant really talk to much people. There’s just a few.
Plz is there any1 out there I can talk to? I just need some support, know that people care about me.
But at the same time I feel guilty cuz I know my life’s nothing compared to people out there.
They live horrible messed up lives. Some have no food, water, get bombed everyday and me? Well I’ve got food water and all. School just gets really tough sometimes.
Too much stuff to do lately.
And I’m really seriously ill too. Ppl ask me like am I stressed and stuff and I’m like thinking no, but I’m not sure any more.
Am I depressed? I dunno.
I know I’ve just gotta live with it. I just kinda wrote this so maybe sum1 like me knows that u can go through it all and not do anything stupid.
Praying to God really helps a lot. Takes so much off your mind. But it’d be cool for some1 2 just like talk to me.
If anyone cares that is. Cuz I have so many friends, but sometimes when I ask of something from them even just a little thing sometimes they’re like yh ok, and they don’t do it.
If ur gonna be sum1s friend then y don’t they always act like 1? But when something bad happens they’re all like omg what happened? But after a few weeks after it’s calmed down and that, they don’t even ask.
We could still be suffering with the same thing but cuz it’s like not so omg at school then there no need asking us is there?
But when something bad happens to them we’re always there..why don’t they appreciate us wheneva we help???
I dunno where this is going but yh I thought this site might help me, it seemed pretty good.
Will anyone reply? God knows. If anyone really cares then they might but they’ve all probably got busy lives of their own so who’d wanna help someone like me eh?
By A.M.I.
Extra: Oh yeah, this bits from me, the maker of the site. These following pictures are from Alex Evans. Check him out at www.alexevans.net I wrote this little bit about his stuff, becuase lol I know he doesn’t like people taking his stuff, so had copyrighted some etc….so I mentioned him, and will hopefully Inshallah/God willing give him a comment SOON asking for them too…I just think they’re brilliant so had to post them. They went so well with what the person in this story wrote about-voice not being heard, silence, depressed people etc… Alexandre if you see this then please let me keep these pics up lol!!!They’re for inspiration to people suffering hardships out there!! feel locked up:
escape into nothingness
drown in your thoughts
looking to the future, even though it looks bleak, there’s always a burst of BLUE lol
lonely in the midst of night on the cold floor and darkness awaits
where will the road lead me to?
lies,lies, so many lies
hiding
raw..black and white says it all in this colourful world
whichever way you look at it I’m still sad
speak no evil, I wont talk at all
feel the breeze for the first time and let it out
its now or never!
when you lift me up, but you left me down
will i ever shut up?But no-one ever hears me
But I will get up
be myself
and stand tall, with no-one to stop me
and lol don’t be afraid to be who your are, just don’t keep it all locked inside, be who you are and talk to friends for help
Hi everyone. It’s me. The one who wrote the story. If anyone bothers to talk to me I’m here …
Hey, i actually spell my name Ami, instead of Amy.
But yeah, i get what ya saying =]
i used to be overly depressed, so im always here if you need to talk =]
xxx
i’ll talk to you..
i know how ur feeling :/
Oh thank you!At last someone I can relate to.
Hi, i actaully know what you mean about the part where your friends don’t actaully give a damn.. happens alot lol.
BUt anyway, writing to us was teh first step, you’ll see. You can talk to me anytime and i’ll be here (lol its what i live for)
you see the thing about your friends is that they don’t understand and when people don’t understand something they tend to just push it back and forget about it… anyway im gunna have to shut up 4 now. take care.
yeah it does happen a lot.
lol can i really tak to you, or well i dont know a lot of people say that and they dont
er thanks. you take care too.
i know some of them dont understand, they are good friends sometimes, but if they listened properly like if i could talk to them properly maybe they’d understand/
lol yh you really can talk to me.
well have you told them that?? have you told them to shut up and listen for a second, i mean really listen 2 you.. cuz sometimes they might not realise it..
umm,i dunno i havent told many of them but recently i did sort of lol. the thing is like, i can’t really talk to them about some things, which I can do when I’m anonymous. But there’s other things I can’t really say aat all, I’ll just keep it all locked up,as usual,I don’t know,I came here to speak to people but like I don’t really wanna tell anyone, whats happened to me. I just feel kinda low,and and stuff and I soo don’t want to see a speacialist or anything, so I thought just speaking to others like you might help. Well its holidays now, so like friends are kinda out of the question. Well, not really lol, but kinda yeah.
yh i knwo what you mean. well sometimes you just need to talk, not about your problems but stuff in general and see what happens from there.
oh yh holidays!!! yay! God i have waited aaages for it come. im so glad i can juat SLEEP now! lol
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Hey A.M.I.,
I just stumbled across your blog while working on my own which is also about depression and stuff. I just started it for the same reason as yours- help people with depression.
You don’t get listened to enough? That’s the same thing that gets me depressed: the chaos of other noises, the lack of silence, no room in all the noise to fit my voice in, no one to listen to me anyway.
so I know the feeling for sure, and also the guilt about not having things as bad as other people, and you are so right about praying helping.
If you get a chance, why not check out my blog, and comment, and I will read your comment and listen to what you say with all my soul.
Hey! This is Hal786 btw. the maker of this blog!!
I know A.M.I. personally though, and that person would be really happy seeing you comment, but A.M.I. has kinda gotten over how she feels-oh and you probably won’t see a reply addressed by AMI either, but thanks all the same!
But yeah,I know exactly how you feel…
Yes, sometimes it feels like you just want to drown out all other noises, and no-one ever wants to listen to you anyway…
And I’m really sorry that you feel like that!
And yeah, about the guilt, like whenever people, or yourself, say that ‘Oh life’s not fair’ etc. it seems wrong, seeing how other people in the world are treated. And when you feel really low, it’s good to think of those who came before you i.e. your ancestors and remember how much people in the past struggled to get you the human rights and the life that you live now, so we should be entirely grateful.
And definitely. Prayer to God helps in every type of situation.
for eternity lol…so it shows God loves us all.
I’m Muslim myself, and I’m guessing your Christian? We pray 5 times a day, our compulsory prayers..but we also pray ‘dua’ whenever we like…like raise your hands,bow your head and ask God what you like…and it truly helps, doesn’t it? It’s like, if any of you ever feel like no-one loves you, no-one listens to you, or that no-one in your life is ever there for you, you know that God is ALWAYS there! He’ll always be listening to your problems. He’s there through your happiness and sad times.
And like my tagline for this site, I always say-and it’s from an Islamic teaching btw.-that after hardships always come ease. God doesn’t give us a burden which we cannot bear.
When people go through hard times, like how you’re suffering through depression, it’s a test from God. For people who stay strong, hopefully God will reward them, and give them ease after their hardships. And we need to remember sometimes that ‘ease’/happiness, may not be given in this life..but we don’t need to worry..coz then it may be given in HEAVEN instead!
And hey, I’m here for you if you ever need someone to talk to yeah
Don’t ever give up ok…everything will one day Inshallah(God-willing) be ok…just believe,have faith,don’t give up!
Remember, there’s always light at the end of every tunnel. It may seem like your life’s full of darkness, but trust me, light WILL shine. Your life WILL get better!
So then, have a look around the rest of my blog if you wish, and i’ve just had a look at yours! well done!i hope yours becomes a success too and that it helps many people along the way!
Please at least read through the other stories here, so you let people who feel alone know that you’re there for them!
I hope everything gets better for you in this life!! Stay strong…
Hay Hal786,
I like what you say about prayer so much! I was thinking i need to do a post about the importance of prayer and all since i did one about human ways to help w/ depression. can I quote you? Like put what you said about prayer in quotation marks and be like, ‘this is from hal786 over at after hardship will always come ease’?
Thank you so much for everything you said! it is very encouraging! It’s also great to get so many comments on my blog! I hope yours continues to be successful and you can reach many people!
Hi!Hey what can I call you btw?esteandanduril?
Thank you!!
Yes, sure! Wait, do you want me to look through this blog, because I think I’ve made posts about prayer before and i’ve written LOADS about it in my comments to people over the past, but yeah that would be really great, i’d love that!
Your very welcome!Thank YOU for visitng this blog in the first place!
It’s no problem,honestly and i really hope your blog is a success!
Hey esteandanduril
These are some things I’ve written about God, praying etc. here:
‘It reminds us that God is Most-Powerful and loving. He has the power to bring happiness to our lives even in the most darkest of moments, when you feel as if all hope is lost. Remember, if you believe and have faith, miracles CAN happen Inshallah/God willing.’
And then things on this post:
http://afterhardshipwillalwayscomeease.wordpress.com/2010/01/02/hardship2ease-inspiration-6-she-was-suicidal-and-a-self-harmer-now-god-has-given-her-strength-and-changed-her-life-from-hardships-to-ease/
And this post:
http://afterhardshipwillalwayscomeease.wordpress.com/2009/09/23/hardsip2ease-day-2009-guest-post-other-paths-showing-the-way-from-hardship-to-ease/
And THIS POST! This was all to do with religion etc. please read this one definitely!!
http://afterhardshipwillalwayscomeease.wordpress.com/2009/09/20/ramadan-special-after-hardship-will-always-come-ease-inspiration-the-quran/
and this, is about suicide in Islam:
”My thoughts, my religion, my country
I definitely thought that this was a great idea..mashallah!God bless everyone who does something good for this day to raise awareness Inshallah/God willing.
Ok, I’ll really try to write some more some other day Inshallah/God willing, like maybe by the end of the week hopefully, but I’m really busy and ill and have a lot of homework to do but I’ll write some quick things.
I really want to help spread the awareness of suicide prevention. Do whatever I can to save a life.
In Islam, we believe suicide is Haram/forbidden…life is a gift from God so we shouldn’t abuse it. God gave us life and will give us death.
In my religion Islam, also we believe that after death we’re going to have eternal life and if you killed yourself in this life on earth, then everyday in Hell, you’re going to kill yourself over and over again about 70,000 times a day i think-and it’ll be in the same method in which you did your suicide” (it’s from : http://afterhardshipwillalwayscomeease.wordpress.com/2009/09/10/ahwace-feature-world-suicide-prevention-day/ )
And this post will help too:
http://afterhardshipwillalwayscomeease.wordpress.com/2009/08/14/hardship2ease-story-3-from-a-girl-who-stopped-cuttingself-harming-because-of-god/
Oh and this post, there’s alot that we’ve written about God, me and my friends-so please look at the post AND the comments there!!
http://afterhardshipwillalwayscomeease.wordpress.com/2009/08/04/ahwace-story-4-abusive-parent-real-friends-and-self-harming-issues/#comments
inchaAllahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!
Wow, that’s is quite a lot of links! thank you so much! I’ll go put those links on my blog!
Um, yeah, I guess you can call me esteandanduril, but that’s kinda long. Maybe just Este for short.
I totally get what you said about typing fast and taking shortcuts. You should see my handwriting when I really get an idea rolling and I can’t slow down or I’ll lose it!
What you say you believe about suicide so makes sense. Asa Catholic, i also believe it is an abuse of life, the gift of God. I don’t know about necessarily going to hell because I know that there can be a lot of things influencing people when they kill themselves so that they aren’t doing it 100% out of free-will, but it totally makes sense that if they freely chose death, they would suffer a perpetual suicide.
Hoping all there is to hope for you!
Yes, it was, I know haha.
Thank you so much!
Ok Este, hello!
Hahah, that’s the same with me when I type!
Yes,the Christian and Islamic views, both pretty much say the same that our lives are gifts from God, so we shouldn’t/have no right to abuse that gift.
Oh yes, well that is something I was hoping to ask someone more knowledgeable in this issue about in the future Inshallah(God-willing).
Because, in Islam, we believe that a ‘morally responsible person’ i.e. someone who will be punished for doing bad, rewarded for doing good HAS TO BE 3 THINGS.
1. Heard the message-of Islam, about God etc.
2. An adult (if a little child does something wrong, they wont be punished)
3. Sane
So, one of the criteria is that you have to be a sane person, to be accounted for your wrong deeds.
I know that a lot of people who self-harm and commit suicide had mental illnesses, so I’m not sure about that kind of scenario…..I guess all I CAN say is : GOD KNOWS BEST
I hop for you too, that you come out of your depression, that God grants you paradise, that you have a good life here and the hereafter
hey. Im liah.
dont feel depressed. life could be a lot worse.
Why do you feel that way?
Hey.Thanks for your comment. I know the person personally,and thankfully they’re not depressed any more.
This is my blog btw,I’m Hal786.
Comment on the other posts too,have a look around.Thanks!
hey man ill talk to u ik how feels its lik they dnt care..its rough place
alex evans eu quero vc so para mim eu odoro os emos tesao
here if u ever wanna talk. xx